Tomorrow is a new day

This last week has been very hard on me. We decided to save money for invetro. I decided to make some things to sell in order to save a little extra. We have talked about doing some fund raisers. At first I was like yes we can do this. And then the stresses of July have set in. I started to think, how are we ever going to save that much? I get a little discouraged thinking, will people buy my stuff when they didn't really buy my crochet stuff?  Lately I have been doubting myself and my worth yet again. It seems like this is a cycle for me. Just when we make a decision in the right way Satan tries to send loop de loops at us saying things like no one will buy your stuff, No one cares. Putting thoughts in my head of how are you going to get kids when you are poor? Therefore putting the doubt i dont need in my head making me feel discouraged before I even start. He has done this so many times. He gets his hooks in me because he knows I have always struggled with self worth. He knows everything about us. Our likes our dislikes and he uses them to his advantage. It is extremely hard in this day and age especially because he is everywhere. He is the voice that tells us we are not good enough. He is the voice that tells us to take things people say, the wrong way because that puts a wedge between us. I know sometimes it seems though the people we love the most hurt us the most. Most of the time it is not meant the way we take it. And well if it is those people have problems. One of my favorite quotes is by a dear lady who is one of my heros. “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” Eleanor Roosevelt. Short and simple. Meaning we make a choice whether to feel inferior by what others say or not. Just like we give consent to let Satan in. Sometimes it is hard to control, and we don't realize he is in until in my case I have a melt down and cry. This week I took everything to heart, and I called my sister telling her what so and so had said and they don't how they don't care. She told me this. Satan is trying to drive a wedge between you and them to make it so the family unit cannot be a peaceful family unit. This truly made me think about it. She is right, if you are having a hard time with any family member, here is what i suggest. Talk to them about it and tell them your feelings. Because in most cases they truly don't know that is how you feel. Pray for them and you. That you will be able to see them through Heavenly Father's eyes. It opens your eyes to see how much he loves them and how much he loves you. He trust you giving you the privilege and an insight of what he sees every day in others. Once you take action and pray Satan has lost. He can not dwell in holy places. Always keep the armor of God close. Because yes I doubt myself and I let him in. I know now that the reasons why he is working on me so hard right now is because he wants nothing but me to fail. Nothing more than to make sure that I never have an Eternal Family. He wants more than anything to tear apart families and make it so we cannot be eternal families because he knows how strong the family is. The family unit is strong. So strong that through my trial he is discouraging me and trying to make me say it's not worth it. When I know in my heart how worth it, it really is. When you feel like nothing is ever going to work out. Know that is Satan's way of bringing you down. That is why he tries to get us. Because he knows how much more powerful an eternal family is than him. Dont give in to him. Be positive, look for the good in everything. Carry on, to the next day which in the words of my other sister is “It's a new day!”  

I am thankful for my family. Who supports us in all we do and say. I am so blessed to have them in my life. I am thankful for the tender mercies that have come to me making me know that I will have a family of my own someday. All I need to do is trust my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. who probably look to me saying Maegan be patient, trust me it will be worth it. I know that with all my heart. I say this in the name of Jesus Christ amen.